Long Black Veil by Jennifer Finney Boylan

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Goodreads Summary:

Publishers Weekly‘s Best Books of 2017

For fans of Donna Tartt and Megan Abbott, a novel about a woman whose family and identity are threatened by the secrets of her past, from the New York Times bestselling author of She’s Not There

On a warm August night in 1980, six college students sneak into the dilapidated ruins of Philadelphia’s Eastern State Penitentiary, looking for a thrill. With a pianist, a painter and a teacher among them, the friends are full of potential. But it’s not long before they realize they are locked in–and not alone. When the friends get lost and separated, the terrifying night ends in tragedy, and the unexpected, far-reaching consequences reverberate through the survivors’ lives. As they go their separate ways, trying to move on, it becomes clear that their dark night in the prison has changed them all. Decades later, new evidence is found, and the dogged detective investigating the cold case charges one of them–celebrity chef Jon Casey– with murder. Only Casey’s old friend Judith Carrigan can testify to his innocence.

But Judith is protecting long-held secrets of her own – secrets that, if brought to light, could destroy her career as a travel writer and tear her away from her fireman husband and teenage son. If she chooses to help Casey, she risks losing the life she has fought to build and the woman she has struggled to become. In any life that contains a “before” and an “after,” how is it possible to live one life, not two?

Weaving deftly between 1980 and the present day, and told in an unforgettable voice, Long Black Veil is an intensely atmospheric thriller that explores the meaning of identity, loyalty, and love. Readers will hail this as Boylan’s triumphant return to fiction.

My Thoughts:

I did not like this book. It was a DNF for me.  I did get it from Blogging for books in exchange for a review.  I thought that the summary and the cover looked great so I was really excited to read it, and I don’t know if I didn’t like it because I read it right after some really amazing books or if just isn’t my style.  The first chapter just seemed to draaaaaaaaaaaag on forever. After reading the reviews on Goodreads, I am surprised it got such high reviews, because even in the higher star review the reviews seemed to be more negative.

The Breathless by Tara Goedjen

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Goodreads Summary:

No one knows what really happened on the beach where Roxanne Cole’s body was found, but her boyfriend, Cage, took off that night and hasn’t been seen since. Until now. One year—almost to the day—from Ro’s death, when he knocks on the door of Blue Gate Manor and asks where she is.

Cage has no memory of the past twelve months. According to him, Ro was alive only the day before. Ro’s sister Mae wouldn’t believe him, except that something’s not right. Nothing’s been right in the house since Ro died.

And then Mae finds the little green book. The one hidden in Ro’s room. It’s filled with secrets—dangerous secrets—about her family, and about Ro. And if what it says is true, then maybe, just maybe, Ro isn’t lost forever.

And maybe there are secrets better left to the dead.

My Thoughts:

Well. No. I did not like this book at all. I wish I had quit reading sooner. The only reason I even finished it was because i received it free from Blogging for Books, but I won’t make that mistake again. It was drawn out and convoluted, and boring. I HATED RO! She was such a bitch. I do not know why everyone loved her and it made no sense. I did love Mae, but damn why have so much romance drawn out with Cage if they don’t even end up together. It was obvious that Lance was a piece of shit from the beginning. I liked the narration parts where it was like we were looking in on the past, but other than that, just no. Also did Cage have sickness from being risen? Yes, right? Mae puts him back to rest, but who woke him up? I don’t get it

Quotes:

“That was the thing about life–people always assumed there’d be more time. More time to say hello, more time to say I love you. More time to say I’m sorry. Until there wasn’t.”

 

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The Language of Thorns by Leigh Bardugo and illustrated by Sara Kipin

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Goodreads Summary:

Love speaks in flowers. Truth requires thorns.

Travel to a world of dark bargains struck by moonlight, of haunted towns and hungry woods, of talking beasts and gingerbread golems, where a young mermaid’s voice can summon deadly storms and where a river might do a lovestruck boy’s bidding but only for a terrible price.

Inspired by myth, fairy tale, and folklore, #1 New York Times–bestselling author Leigh Bardugo has crafted a deliciously atmospheric collection of short stories filled with betrayals, revenge, sacrifice, and love.

Perfect for new readers and dedicated fans, these tales will transport you to lands both familiar and strange—to a fully realized world of dangerous magic that millions have visited through the novels of the Grishaverse.

This collection of six stories includes three brand-new tales, all of them lavishly illustrated with art that changes with each turn of the page, culminating in six stunning full-spread illustrations as rich in detail as the stories themselves.

My Thoughts:

OMG THIS BOOK YOU GUYS! I haven’t read the other books in the Grishaverse, but now I have to. THIS BOOK WAS AMAZING. All of the fairy tales were soooooo good. I loved recognizing the stories I am used to mixed into these like, The Little Mermaid, Hansel and Gretel, Cinderella, and The Nutcracker. I love how it isn’t Disney style fairy tales. The princess does not always marry the first prince that she meets. Good does not always triumph. The villain isn’t always who you think it is. AND THE ARTWORK! IT IS SO BEAUTIFUL! I love that it shows women can be beautiful, and good, and evil, and dark, and cunning, and just anything.

Quotes:

“You see, some people are born with a piece of night inside, and that hollow place can never be filled – not with all the good food or sunshine in the world. That emptiness cannot be banished, and so some days we wake with the feeling of the wind blowing through, and we must simply endure it as the boy did.”

“We were not made to please princes.”

“This goes to show you that sometimes the unseen is not to be feared and that those meant to love us most are not always ones who do.”

“This is the problem with making a thing forbidden. It does nothing but build an ache in the heart.”

“She held each sorrow like a chafing grain and grew her grudges like pearls.”

“But hope rises like water trapped by a dam, higher and higher, in increments that mean nothing until you face the flood.”

“A thousand desperate wishes have been spoken on these shores, and in the end they were all the same: Make me someone new.”

“I can bear ugliness, I find the only thing I cannot live with is death.”

“Wanting is why people get up in the morning. It gives them something to dream of at night. The more I wanted, the more I became like them, the more real I became.”

How to Hang a Witch (How to Hang a Witch #1) by Adriana Mather

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Goodreads Summary:

It’s the Salem Witch Trials meets Mean Girls in a debut novel from one of the descendants of Cotton Mather, where the trials of high school start to feel like a modern day witch hunt for a teen with all the wrong connections to Salem’s past.

Salem, Massachusetts is the site of the infamous witch trials and the new home of Samantha Mather. Recently transplanted from New York City, Sam and her stepmother are not exactly welcomed with open arms. Sam is the descendant of Cotton Mather, one of the men responsible for those trials and almost immediately, she becomes the enemy of a group of girls who call themselves The Descendants. And guess who their ancestors were?

If dealing with that weren’t enough, Sam also comes face to face with a real live (well technically dead) ghost. A handsome, angry ghost who wants Sam to stop touching his stuff. But soon Sam discovers she is at the center of a centuries old curse affecting anyone with ties to the trials. Sam must come to terms with the ghost and find a way to work with The Descendants to stop a deadly cycle that has been going on since the first accused witch was hanged. If any town should have learned its lesson, it’s Salem. But history may be about to repeat itself.

My Thoughts:

I’ve always been fascinated with the Salem Witch Trials. I want to visit Salem soooo much. I think this is one of the only history things that actually interests me. I love that the author actually has this history in her family. Plus she has a Titanic survivor in her family, and book two is about the Titanic. I can’t wait to read it. There is kind of a love triangle in this book because Sam has a thing going with a Ghost and with her neighbor Jaxon. Anyways, I really liked this book. The villain of the story did not surprise me, but I think it was well written. I loved all the witchy and ghost elements.

Quotes:

“Almost everything worth believing in cannot be seen. Love, for instance.”

“Sometimes you do things because you believe in a person, and not because you believe in everything they do.”

“If a man fears dogs, he may beat one with a stick when he sees it. As is the nature of all creatures, that dog will bite him. And then he may tell everyone that he was right about dogs, that they are evil. But I ask you, who is at fault in this scenario, the man or the dog?”

“My dad always says that you don’t get to choose what happens in the world, only how you react to it.”

“But sometimes people need to be believed in more than they need to be told what is so.”

“To really care for another is a reason to live. When that beauty was blotted out of my world, I no longer wanted to be in it.”

The Suffering Tree by Elle Cosimano

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Goodreads Summary:

“It’s dark magic brings him back.”

Tori Burns and her family left D.C. for claustrophobic Chaptico, Maryland, after suddenly inheriting a house under mysterious circumstances. That inheritance puts her at odds with the entire town, especially Jesse Slaughter and his family—it’s their generations-old land the Burns have “stolen.” But none of that seems to matter after Tori witnesses a young man claw his way out of a grave under the gnarled oak in her new backyard.

Nathaniel Bishop may not understand what brought him back, but it’s clear to Tori that he hates the Slaughters for what they did to him centuries ago. Wary yet drawn to him by a shared sense of loss, she gives him shelter. But in the wake of his arrival comes a string of troubling events—including the disappearance of Jesse Slaughter’s cousin—that seem to point back to Nathaniel.

As Tori digs for the truth—and slowly begins to fall for Nathaniel—she uncovers something much darker in the tangled branches of the Slaughter family tree. In order to break the centuries-old curse that binds Nathaniel there and discover the true nature of her inheritance, Tori must unravel the Slaughter family’s oldest and most guarded secrets. But the Slaughters want to keep them buried… at any cost.

From award-winning author Elle Cosimano comes a haunting, atmospheric thriller perfect to hand to readers of the Mara Dyer trilogy and Bone Gap.

My Thoughts:

I love the cover, and the title. My friend Candace read this and recommended it to me. I do enjoy books where there is self harm. The main character does cut herself a lot in this book. I read a lot of reviews that people hate the book because of the self harm aspect. While this is something I enjoy reading about, I do understand that some people don’t. However, I think people are way overreacting about this. We should include this in some books because IT IS A REAL ISSUE! People do self-harm. This should be represented. I think it is shitty that people are giving this book 1 star because of the cutting aspect. If you don’t want to read it fine, but to rate the book 1 star solely based on this, I think that is shitty. Just because you don’t understand it and think that people shouldn’t do it does not mean you should ruin the books rating for the author. FUCKING ANYWAY. There is a lot going on in this book. The main character’s dad died and she and her mom move into a house in a small town that was mysteriously given to them. Also there are chapters from the past from the point of view of an indentured servant, who in present time, digs himself out of a grave. There is magic and mystery. Overall great story.

Manicpixiedreamgirl by Tom Leveen

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Goodreads Summary:

Sometimes the most dramatic scenes in a high school theater club are the ones that happen between the actors and crew off stage.

Seventeen-year-old Tyler Darcy’s dream of being a writer is starting to feel very real now that he’s sold his first short story to a literary journal. He should be celebrating its publication with his two best friends who’ve always had his back, but on this night, a steady stream of texts from his girlfriend Sidney keep intruding. So do the memories of his dream girl, Becky, who’s been on his mind a little too much since the first day of high school. Before the night is over, Ty might just find the nerve to stop all the obsessing and finally take action.

My Thoughts:

I love the title, but I don’t love the cover. So I was okay with this book, but I hated the main character. Tyler starts high school, and falls in love at first sight with a girl, but does not actually meet or talk to her. He basically just stalks her for the entire book, even while he has a girlfriend. She knows he is love with the other girl, but she figures he is never going to hook up with her because he can’t even talk to her so she is probably fine. I am torn between liking the book, and hating Tyler.

Turtles All the Way Down by John Green

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Goodreads Summary:

#1 bestselling author John Green returns with his first new novel since The Fault in Our Stars!

Sixteen-year-old Aza never intended to pursue the mystery of fugitive billionaire Russell Pickett, but there’s a hundred-thousand-dollar reward at stake and her Best and Most Fearless Friend, Daisy, is eager to investigate. So together, they navigate the short distance and broad divides that separate them from Russell Pickett’s son, Davis.

Aza is trying. She is trying to be a good daughter, a good friend, a good student, and maybe even a good detective, while also living within the ever-tightening spiral of her own thoughts.

In his long-awaited return, John Green, the acclaimed, award-winning author of Looking for Alaska and The Fault in Our Stars, shares Aza’s story with shattering, unflinching clarity in this brilliant novel of love, resilience, and the power of lifelong friendship.

My Thoughts:

I grabbed this at the library when I was checking out some other books, and truth be told I had not even heard of it, but I was intrigued by the cover and the title. AND OMG I GOBBLED IT UP. I read it in just a few hours, because I literally could not stop reading it. I LOVED IT. I have not read any John Green books, but I do own a couple, and I am going to need to read these right away because this book was just so fucking good.  This book did make me questions things I thought I knew about OCD. This is the second time in as many weeks where I have heard of these “intrusive thoughts” (our main character calls them invasives) and this is something I actually have that I didn’t even know what a thing. I learn more from fucking fiction novels about my own health than I do from real doctors that I see. Fuck. Anyway. I love the explanation of the title. Aza is perfect. She is stuck in her head and dealing with invasives and trapped in thought spirals. Her OCD is one of the most honest portrayals of mental illness that I have read in contemporary fiction. She also very clearly has depersonalization disorder, but neither of these diagnosis are mentioned. I thought that was a little weird. The way she makes you experience her OCD with her is brutal and shocking. I out loud yelled at her about putting fucking hand sanitizer in her mouth. I am so glad she got caught, because girl you need help. Also a nod at Lexapro which I was taking and totally helped me, but like Aza, felt like well I don’t really need it anymore, because I should just get to be who I am and not have to use medication. This book made me call and get an appointment with my doctor. I need help too. I fucking hate her best friend Daisy. How dare you write your friend into your fac fiction (and lots of star wars talk because she writes Star Wars fan fiction, and I could not care less, I never watched the movies) that is so fucking mean. Maybe you need an outlet to deal with how your best friend is mentally ill, but to make her the garbage character in your stories that thousands of people apparently read. Fuck you. Write that shit in your diary or private blog. Not for thousands to read. Rude AF. Davis is so cute though. He was such an adorable character. I loved all the metaphors, and why can’t I find a therapist like hers. I need someone like that in my life. I actually emailed a bunch of new therapists in the area and am trying to find someone new. I am not going to give up this time. Thanks book. I like that Aza doesn’t just “get fixed”, and that being with a guy doesn’t change her, because none of that shit is realistic with mental illness. This book was amazing. I yelled, I cried, I loved it.

Quotes (it’s really hard to limit this because this book was just so FUCKING good):

“Your now is not your forever.”

“We never really talked much or even looked at each other, but it didn’t matter because we were looking at the same sky together, which is maybe even more intimate than eye contact anyway. I mean, anybody can look at you. It’s quite rare to find someone who sees the same world you see.”

“You’re both the fire and the water that extinguishes it. You’re the narrator, the protagonist, and the sidekick. You’re the storyteller and the story told. You are somebody’s something, but you are also your you.”

“True terror isn’t being scared; it’s not having a choice on the matter.”

“The problem with happy endings is that they’re either not really happy, or not really endings, you know? In real life, some things get better and some things get worse. And then eventually you die.”

“The worst part of being truly alone is you think about all the times you wished that everyone would just leave you be. Then they do, and you are left being, and you turn out to be terrible company.”

“Actually, the problem is that I can’t lose my mind,” I said. “It’s inescapable.”

“It’s a weird phrase in English, in love, like it’s a sea you drown in or a town you live in. You don’t get to be in anything else—in friendship or in anger or in hope. All you can be in is love.”

“One of the challenges with pain–physical or psychic–is that we can really only approach it through metaphor. It can’t be represented the way table or a body can. In some ways, pain is the opposite of language.”

“Our hearts were broken in the same places. That’s something like love, but maybe not quite the thing itself.”

“And we’re such language-based creatures that to some extent we cannot know what we cannot name. And so we assume it isn’t real. We refer to it with catch-all terms, like crazy or chronic pain, terms that both ostracise and minimise. The term chronic pain captures nothing of the grinding, constant, ceaseless, inescapable hurt. And the term crazy arrives at us with none of the terror and worry you live with.”

“Most adults are just hollowed out. You watch them try to fill themselves up with booze or money or God or fame or whatever they worship, and it all rots them from the inside until nothing is left but the money or the booze or God they though would save them. Adults think they are wielding power, but really power is wielding them.”

“Worrying is the correct worldview. Life is worrisome.”

“People always talk like there’s a bright line between imagination and memory, but there isn’t, at least not for me. I remember what I’ve imagined and imagine what I remember.”

“We always say we are beneath the stars. We aren’t, of course—there is no up or down, and anyway the stars surround us. But we say we are beneath them, which is nice. So often English glorifies the human—we are whos, other animals are that—but English puts us beneath the stars, at least.”

“There is hope, even when your brain tells you there isn’t.”

“I wanted to tell her that I was getting better, because that was supposed to be the narrative of illness: It was a hurdle you jumped over, or a battle you won. Illness is a story told in the past tense.”

“Every loss is unprecedented. You can’t ever know someone else’s hurt, not really – just like touching someone else’s body isn’t the same as having someone else’s body”

“In the best conversations, you don’t even remember what you talked about, only how it felt. It felt like we were in some place your body can’t visit, some place with no ceiling and no walls and no floor and no instruments”

“I would never slay the dragon, because the dragon was also me.”

“It’s so weird, to know you’re crazy and not be able to do anything about it, you know? It’s not like you believe yourself to be normal. You know there is a problem. But you can’t figure a way through to fixing it. Because you can’t be sure, you know?”

“I couldn’t make myself happy, but I could make people around me miserable.”

“Dr. Karen Singh liked to say that a unwanted thought was like a car driving past you when you’re standing on on the side of the road, and I told myself I didn’t have to get into that car, that my moment of choice was not whether to have the thought, but whether to be carried away by it.
And then I got in the car.”

“I guess at some point, you realize that whoever takes care of you is just a person, and that they have no superpowers and can’t actually protect you from getting hurt.”

“Imagine you’re trying to find someone, or even you’re trying to find yourself, but you have no senses, no way to know where the walls are which way is forward or backward, what is water and what is air. You’re senseless and shapeless—you feel like you can only describe what you are by identifying what you’re not, and you’re floating around in a body with no control. You don’t get to decide who you like or where you live or when you eat or what you fear. You’re just stuck in there, totally alone, in this darkness. That’s scary.”

“You feeling scared?”
“Kinda.”
“Of what?”
“It’s not like that. The sentence doesn’t have, like, an object. I’m just scared.”

 

Suicide Notes from Beautiful Girls by Lynn Weingarten

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Goodreads Summary:

They say Delia burned herself to death in her stepfather’s shed. They say it was suicide.

But June doesn’t believe it.

June and Delia used to be closer than anything. Best friends in that way that comes before everyone else—before guys, before family. It was like being in love, but more. They had a billion secrets, binding them together like thin silk cords.

But one night a year ago, everything changed. June, Delia, and June’s boyfriend Ryan were just having a little fun. Their good time got out of hand. And in the cold blue light of morning, June knew only this—things would never be the same again.

And now, a year later, Delia is dead. June is certain she was murdered. And she owes it to her to find out the truth…which is far more complicated than she ever could have imagined.

Sexy, dark, and atmospheric, Suicide Notes from Beautiful Girls will keep you guessing until the very last page.

My Thoughts:

I love love love the title and the cover. Delia and June are BFFs and then they quit talking to each other. The next year Delia burns herself to death, and there is a memorial at the school for her. Her boyfriend claimed she was murdered, so June investigates to find out what really happened to Delia. There were a lot of twists and turns in this book. I am writing this review almost a full year after reading this, and I am having trouble remembering everything about it.

 

 

Wink Poppy Midnight by April Genevieve Tucholke

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Goodreads Summary:

Every story needs a hero.
Every story needs a villain.
Every story needs a secret.

Wink is the odd, mysterious neighbor girl, wild red hair and freckles. Poppy is the blond bully and the beautiful, manipulative high school queen bee. Midnight is the sweet, uncertain boy caught between them. Wink. Poppy. Midnight. Two girls. One boy. Three voices that burst onto the page in short, sharp, bewitching chapters, and spiral swiftly and inexorably toward something terrible or tricky or tremendous.

What really happened?
Someone knows.
Someone is lying.

My Thoughts:

This book was so fucking good. I love the writing style in this book! This book is told in three points of view, and is full of whimsy. I really like books that are told in multiple POVs. Midnight is such a cute, sad character. He puts up with Poppy and, just no. Speaking of Poppy, she is a sociopath or something. She is so mean, She’s basically the devil. Wink is Midnight’s neighbor who reminds me of Luna Lovegood, if Luna was also evil. She is the whimsical one, who is basically feral. She believes in magic and her mom reads tarot cards. And she is also a fucking psychopath. Poor, poor Midnight. AND Oh the plot twist. Honestly I felt so bad for Midnight, and then on the other hand I was like get the fuck out of there you complete and total idiot. Anyways I loved it.

 

Acid by Emma Pass

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Goodreads Summary:

The year is 2113. In Jenna Strong’s world, ACID—the most brutal controlling police force in history—rule supreme. No throwaway comment or whispered dissent goes unnoticed—or unpunished. And it was ACID agents who locked Jenna away for life, for a horrendous crime she struggles to remember. But Jenna’s violent prison time has taught her how to survive by any means necessary.

When a mysterious rebel group breaks her out, she must use her strength, speed, and skill to stay one step ahead of ACID, and try to uncover the truth about what really happened on that terrible night two years ago. They have taken her life, her freedom, and her true memories away from her. How can she reclaim anything when she doesn’t know who to trust?

Strong, gritty writing, irresistible psychological suspense, and action consume the novel as Jenna struggles to survive against the all-controlling ACID. Seriously sinister stuff.

My Thoughts:

I got this book at the dollar store. I love finding books there, because they are usually hard cover, and they are only $1, and they are brand new! Normally when I get books for that cheap it is at a thrift store or library sale, and sometimes the condition isn’t pristine. Although this book is full of action I just didn’t really connect with any of the characters. There are a ton of dystopian elements to the book, but it kind of seemed thrown together. Jenna is in prison for killing her parents, and even though she is a teenage girl she is in general population at an all male prison for some reason. Jenna’s doctor helps her break out of jail (without her knowledge, until it has already happened), and she ends up in a different facility. No one will tell her why she is there or why she was broken out of prison, and it gets pretty annoying. She has surgery to look different, and is trained to have a new identity. She has to pretend to be married to a guy who is a total slob, and he runs out on her, which is illegal apparently, and she is afraid of going back to jail. While out looking for him she gets robbed, and kicks the guys ass. It turns out it is the doctor’s son, who is a drug addict, so she decides to take him in because she feels guilty. He gets sober, and they go on the run together, and pretty much fall in insta-love. Then of course he finds out who she is, after falling in with a group of terrorists, and he throws a huge tantrum. She goes back to jail, and is offered a new identity, with memory alteration and another surgery, or death. She takes the new identity. The people who broke her out, end up kidnapping her, and she gets her memory back. She fights the evil government and wins. Oh yah, she has another surgery that makes her look how she originally looked. It was way too much going on dystopia wise and severely lacking in character development.

 

What Happens Next by Colleen Clayton

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Goodreads Summary

How can you talk about something you can’t remember?

Before the ski trip, sixteen-year-old Cassidy “Sid” Murphy was a cheerleader (at the bottom of the pyramid, but still…), a straight-A student, and a member of a solid trio of best friends. When she ends up on a ski lift next to handsome local college boy, Dax Windsor, she’s thrilled; but Dax takes everything from Sid—including a lock of her perfect red curls—and she can’t remember any of it.

Back home and unable to relate to her old friends, Sid drops her college prep classes and takes up residence in the A/V room with only Corey “The Living Stoner” Livingston for company. But as she gets to know Corey (slacker, baker, total dreamboat), Sid finds someone who truly makes her happy. Now, if she can just shake the nightmares and those few extra pounds, everything will be perfect… or so she thinks.

Witty and poignant, Colleen Clayton’s stunning debut is a story about moving on after the unthinkable happens.

My Thoughts:

A lot of the bloggers I follow LOVED this book, but I don’t get it. Sid goes on a ski trip with her classmates, and meets a cute older guy on the ski lift. She decides to sneak out, against her friends advice, to meet him at a party. When she gets to the house, she finds out there is no party (the guys gives excuses) but he wants her to come in for a movie. She thinks the guy is cute, and is really excited to have the attention from him. She decides to go in. Once there he drugs her drink and rapes her. She wakes up the next day, and makes it back to the ski lodge, where she doesn’t tell anyone what happened, but gets in trouble for sneaking out and going to a party. She ends up having a lot of emotional problems from the rape, and from keeping it a secret. She starts to develop anorexia as a way to control her life. She ends up meeting Corey, who is labeled as a loser and a stoner, and it turns out he is a really great guy. She learns a lot about him, and through that learns a lot about herself. She eventually is able to come to terms with what happened to her, and the rapist is brought to justice (not because of her, she reads it in a newspaper), and tell her friends and her mom.  This book tackles a lot of the themes I enjoy reading about in realistic fiction like eating disorders and abuse, but it fell flat for me. Meh.

Spellbook of the Lost and Found by Moïra Fowley-Doyle

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Goodreads Summary:

One stormy summer night, Olive and her best friend, Rose, begin to lose things. It starts with simple items like hair clips and jewellery, but soon it’s clear that Rose has lost something bigger; something she won’t talk about.

Then Olive meets three wild, mysterious strangers: Ivy, Hazel and Rowan. Like Rose, they’re mourning losses – and holding tight to secrets.

When they discover the ancient spellbook, full of hand-inked charms to conjure back lost things, they realise it might be their chance to set everything right. Unless it’s leading them towards secrets that were never meant to be found . . .

My Thoughts:

I got this book for free from TLA, and my bok club chose to read it. I am so glad. This book is amazing. I added the author to my follow list, because It was great. The cover is beautiful. Three teens find a spell book and decide to use it to find lost items. The problem is that the spell requires things to be lost for things to be found. The book has a lot of characters and a lot of points of view. It is a little hard to keep track of in the beginning while you are figuring out who’s who. Laurel, Ash, and Holly are one group of characters with Laurel being the narrator of this group. Then there is Olive and Rose, with Olive narrating. Lastly there is Hazel, her brother Rowan, and Ivy, with Hazel narrating. Hazel is my favorite character. She is tough and angry, and flirty. The writing is beautiful. It’s a quick and fun read. I love the plot twist, and didn’t expect it. I love that there is some girl/girl romance in this book. Honestly loved this book, and look forward to read more from this author.

Nevermoor: The Trials of Morrigan Crow by Jessica Townsend

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Goodreads Summary:

A breathtaking, enchanting new series by debut author Jessica Townsend, about a cursed girl who escapes death and finds herself in a magical world–but is then tested beyond her wildest imagination

Morrigan Crow is cursed. Having been born on Eventide, the unluckiest day for any child to be born, she’s blamed for all local misfortunes, from hailstorms to heart attacks–and, worst of all, the curse means that Morrigan is doomed to die at midnight on her eleventh birthday.

But as Morrigan awaits her fate, a strange and remarkable man named Jupiter North appears. Chased by black-smoke hounds and shadowy hunters on horseback, he whisks her away into the safety of a secret, magical city called Nevermoor.

It’s then that Morrigan discovers Jupiter has chosen her to contend for a place in the city’s most prestigious organization: the Wundrous Society. In order to join, she must compete in four difficult and dangerous trials against hundreds of other children, each boasting an extraordinary talent that sets them apart–an extraordinary talent that Morrigan insists she does not have. To stay in the safety of Nevermoor for good, Morrigan will need to find a way to pass the tests–or she’ll have to leave the city to confront her deadly fate.

My Thoughts:

This book was great. I loved it. It did take me until chapter 3 or so before I really got into, so if you started it and didn’t like it, give it some time. I am so ready for the rest of the series to come out. I guess I really like middle grade novels. They seem so full of whimsy and fun. Morrigan Crow was born cursed, so she is an outcast. Also she is going to die when she turns eleven. A real bummer. Luckily she receives an invitation to join the Wundrous Society, and is whisked away to Nevermoor before she is about to die. In Nvermoor, she has to complete three challenges to prove she is worthy to join the Wundrous Society. I love how mysterious everything was. The Wundrous Society is not a secret society but it IS full of secrets. LOVED IT!

Water for Elephants by Sara Gruen

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Goodreads Summary:

An atmospheric, gritty, and compelling novel of star-crossed lovers, set in the circus world circa 1932 illuminated by a wonderful sense of time and place. Winner of the 2007 BookBrowse Award for Most Popular Book.

An atmospheric, gritty, and compelling novel of star-crossed lovers, set in the circus world circa 1932, by the bestselling author of Riding Lessons.

When Jacob Jankowski, recently orphaned and suddenly adrift, jumps onto a passing train, he enters a world of freaks, drifters, and misfits, a second-rate circus struggling to survive during the Great Depression, making one-night stands in town after endless town. A veterinary student who almost earned his degree, Jacob is put in charge of caring for the circus menagerie. It is there that he meets Marlena, the beautiful young star of the equestrian act, who is married to August, the charismatic but twisted animal trainer. He also meets Rosie, an elephant who seems untrainable until he discovers a way to reach her.

Beautifully written, Water for Elephants is illuminated by a wonderful sense of time and place. It tells a story of a love between two people that overcomes incredible odds in a world in which even love is a luxury that few can afford.

My Thoughts:

This book is amazing.  I love circus books I guess!   This book is told from the point of view of Jacob set in modern time when he is in a nursing home and is either ninety or ninety three (he doesn’t remember) and also set in the 30s when Jacob worked for a circus. In modern times Jacob is a really terribly depressing, but also surprising funny character.  The circus comes to town, just down the street from the nursing home, and it reminds Jacob of when he used to work at the circus during the Great Depression.  The story is told beautifully. I love how it alternates between the past and the present, and how the story really unfolds.  It was quite the page turner for me.  I haven’t seen the movie, period films and romance films are not my usual forte, also I used to be deathly terrified of clowns (IDK why I am not anymore) but after reading this, I definitely want to check it out.

Beauty’s Kingdom (Sleeping Beauty #4) by A.N. Roquelaure (pseudonym), Anne Rice

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Goodreads summary:

Before E. L. James and Sylvia Day, there was Anne Rice: Discover Beauty’s Kingdom, the fourth novel in the bestselling Sleeping Beauty series

Mega-bestselling author Anne Rice, writing as A. N. Roquelaure, returns to the mysterious kingdom of Queen Eleanor in this new chapter of her Sleeping Beauty series. When the great queen is reported dead, Beauty and Laurent return to the kingdom they left twenty years before. Beauty agrees to take the throne, but she insists that all erotic servitude be voluntary. Countless eager princes, princesses, lords, ladies, and commoners journey to Beauty’s realm, where she and her husband usher in a new era of desire, longing, and ecstasy. Provocative and stirring, Rice’s imaginative retelling of the Sleeping Beauty myth will be adored by her longtime fans and new readers of erotica just discovering the novels.

This book is intended for mature audiences.

 

My Thoughts:

 

I was absolutely in love with the original trilogy. I have read book 1 probably 10 times. It is my absolute favorite erotic novel. The entire trilogy is pure gold. I was so fucking excited when I heard about this book. This one though….well it was just meh. I wanted to love it so much, but it just wasn’t amazing like the other books. Honestly it’s a huge disappointment because the other books were THAT good. In this book Beauty and Laurent are retired to the countryside from running their own kingdom, when they find out their old masters the Queen and Crown Prince have perished in a boating accident and left the pleasure kingdom to them.  They return and take over control of the kingdom, and make several changes to pleasure slavery.  Should have been amazing. Wasn’t.

 

 

2018 Challenges and Goals

I only have a couple of resolutions this year but I did take a cue from my friend Kayla at Epicfied.com to see what other types of goals or challenges I could do.

 

Reading and Writing:

  • I want to read 52 books this year.  That should be absolutely easy, I read more than that last year
  • I want to join the quarterly reading program at the library, because you can win a gift card, and I love the library, and I never go anymore
  • I also want to do the summer reading program at my local libraries, because prizes. I’ve never signed up before, but I read enough to qualify, so I am in this year!
  • Write more! (from Kayla at Epicfied) I want to journal for at least a few minutes everyday and I want to blog more regularly this year
  • I want to write the book reviews to the books I read for Vivacioushobo.com within a week of reading them, so that I don’t forget all of the details of the books
  • Read for at least 20 mins. per day because I read that this is just as good for you as meditation, which I am very bad at

Food and Fitness:

  • I want to try new restaurants. I made a list of all the area restaurants, and have a color code for whether or not I like them.  This will help me go to new places, because there is a visual list and I can easily see where I have already been.
  • Try 6 foods I have never tried, or didn’t like in the past.  (from Kayla at Epicfied) so I am a huge picky eater so this will be pretty hard for me.
  • Move more! I want to try to walk more outside (when it warms up!) and I have a plan to walk with my mom and sister-in-law twice a week.
  • Try something new in fitness (from Kayla at Epicfied) I love this one! IDK what I am going to try yet but I’m excited to figure it out.
  • Complete Adriene’s “30 Days of Yoga” I have started Day 1 twice and I haven’t ever even finished the first video. Maybe yoga just isn’t for me, but I want to give it one more go.

Personal

  • More selfies for confidence! I challenged Kayla to do this last year, and she said it went well, and she challenged me this year, so I’m excited to do this.
  • Finish at least 4 coloring books. I got so many coloring books for Christmas, and I already had a ton, so I really need to step up my coloring game
  • Get a new tattoo (from Kayla at Epicfied)  YAAAAAS! I am so ready for a new tattoo. I want to cover up my surgery scars, and tattoo my other upper arm, and cover up my lower back tattoo, and get more finger tattoos
  • Watch more movies. Wade got me moviepass, and I really hope that it comes in the mail soon, and that means we can see unlimited movies for $20/month so I really want to hit the theatres more, since I really enjoy going

Here are Kayla’s goals for this year! (You can see what I challenged her to do)

Anything I should add?

The Graveyard Book by Neil Gaiman and Dave McKean (Illustrator)

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Goodreads Summary:

After the grisly murder of his entire family, a toddler wanders into a graveyard where the ghosts and other supernatural residents agree to raise him as one of their own.

Nobody Owens, known to his friends as Bod, is a normal boy. He would be completely normal if he didn’t live in a sprawling graveyard, being raised and educated by ghosts, with a solitary guardian who belongs to neither the world of the living nor of the dead. There are dangers and adventures in the graveyard for a boy. But if Bod leaves the graveyard, then he will come under attack from the man Jack—who has already killed Bod’s family…

Beloved master storyteller Neil Gaiman returns with a luminous new novel for the audience that embraced his New York Times bestselling modern classic Coraline. Magical, terrifying, and filled with breathtaking adventures, The Graveyard Book is sure to enthrall readers of all ages.

 

My Thoughts:

This is my first Neil Gaiman book and I LOVED IT! I loved it immediately. Nobody Owens is such a cute character! EEEEK! Plus how fucking cool is the name Nobody?! Way too fucking cool. He goes by Bod for a nickname, but he should just stick with Nobody because it is awesome. When he is a baby, his entire family is murdered by a man called Jack. Bod escapes (not on purpose, but Jack left the door open, and he just wandered off) and ended up in the graveyard. There he gets the protection of the graveyard and full adoptive family of parents, a godfather, and endless friends, all dead of course. During the book you get to see Bod grow up, as every few chapters he is a couple of years older. I did not want Bod to grow up, but alas, we all do eventually. This book was quirky and unique, and I loved it.

Friend Breakups

 

As an adult being a good friend can be hard, and making friends is the hardest thing ever.

Breaking up with a close friend can leave far fewer people to run to than an actual break-up – who do you call if you've fallen out with the person you do everything with?

But what about friend breakups? How does one even go about this? Is it even necessary? I have had friends in the past and have quit talking to people for various reasons over the years. Sometimes the reasons were clear-cut, like a fight and we both stop speaking, other times I have no idea why the friendship ended, we both just quit talking to each other. Sometimes it is easy to cut people out of your lives, by simply no longer reaching out. I think this is called ghosting.
But what do you do if you don’t want to be friends anymore, and the other person still does? When is it time to let a friendship go?

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  • when there are more negative interactions than positive ones (friendship should be enjoyable)
  • if you cry after each hangout session (again friendship should be a happy thing, sure there are times when shit happens, but this should not be common)
  • if you have extreme anxiety every time you have plans with that friend (you shouldn’t have to psyche yourself up to hang out with someone)
  • they don’t bring any value to your life (and I don’t mean with gifts or money, but if they don’t bring joy to your life, or cheer you up, or bring any contribution to the relationship)
  • if they don’t try to be your friend (if you are always the one calling, texting, or tagging them on social media, and there is never any effort on the part of the other person to interact with you. friendships should be two-sided)
  • when you can’t be yourself around that person (if there are significant parts of yourself that you feel like you need to change or hide, they probably aren’t very good for you)
  • If they make you feel bad about yourself (if they manipulate you, pressure you, belittle you, or you fight often)

I think these are very valid reasons to end a friendship. It’s up to you to decide if ghosting if an okay breakup for the relationship, or if you need a more formal breakup.

Other things to consider in a friend breakup.

Friendship collateral damage:
When you quit being friends with someone you also have to deal with the collateral damage to mutual friends. For instance if they introduced you to some people who you become friends with, do you still get to be friends with them? Or do you lose everyone they introduced you to? What about your other friends, do you expect them to quit talking to your now ex-friend? I think it is up to the other friends to decide, but I don’t see why the other people need to be affected.

Social Media:
What do you do with social media?  Do you unfollow them? Unfriend them? Block them? Keep liking all their posts like you always have? What is the proper way to behave when you no longer want to be friends with  someone? Is it best to cut all ties to the person completely? I think it is best to remove them from your social media. If you don’t want to be their friend, do you really need to see what they had for lunch, or who they are hanging out with now?

I’m writing about this because I am going through this now. It is a hard thing. Relationship breakups are easier, more clear-cut. I don’t know what to do. My friend and I had a fight a few months ago, and it really changed our relationship dynamic. We came together and talked it out, and agreed to move on, but I honestly can’t.  We have gotten together a few times since then, but the friendship is off now. I don’t know if it is salvageable.  If I take my own advice from above, it is time to end the friendship, because I can say yes to every bullet point. There are so many other things to consider in my situation, as I am sure there are in most situations.  I just am not sure what to do.

Have you ever broken up with a friend? Any advice? If you had a friend breakup with you, what do you wish they had done differently?

 

 

January movies

What movies do you want to see this month?

 

Happy New Year!

It is resolution time.  Some years I make resolutions, some years I don’t.  When I do I always set ridiculous unattainable goals that I won’t do like quit junk food, or work out every single day, when I literally never work out. So it’s not really realistic. This year my goals are much simpler.

1. Quit having chips for breakfast

So I’m an adult and I can do what I want. But eating chips for breakfast (almost every fucking day) is really bad. I know it’s bad, you know it’s bad, but does this stop me from doing it? No. Why? Cause it’s fucking convenient, and I like chips.  No more! I am not going to have chips for breakfast. Am I going to chip eating chips, absolutely fucking not, but I will stop having them first thing in the morning.

2. Say no more

I have trouble saying no to my friends.  Or when I do say no, I am easily talked into changing that answer. I have trouble with this because I have anxiety that if I don’t do what people want they won’t like me anymore.  So a lot of the time I am doing stuff I just don’t want to fucking do. AT ALL. This happens all the time.  I’m so tired of it.  If you don’t want to be my friend, fine. Fuck it.

3. Read 52 Books

This year my reading goal is very obtainable. I would like to read one book a week. This was my goal last year, and I exceeded it.  I was gong to make a huge goal and try to keep up with the Jones (other blogs) but why? I do run a book blog (www.vivacioushobo.com) but who cares about followers, and shit like that. I started that for fun, and then it turned into a chore (for Sadness) but I want it to be fun again.  I want to read what I want not what “I need to” because other bloggers are telling me to, or because people are sending me their books for free. I just want everything to be relaxed and fun.

That’s it. Those are my resolutions. Pretty obtainable I think.

Do you do resolutions? Did you keep up with them last year? What are your resolutions this year?

 

Dorothy Must Die Series by Danielle Paige

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I loved the first book in this series! I was very excited to read the first book.  I don’t feel like it was worth it to read the entire series, and this could be because it was so long.  I did read all 7 books at one right after the other.  So it is a pretty creepy retelling of the Wizard of Oz books, which I have never read, but I did watch the movie. I just loved the first book in the series so much. I like that it took the Oz that we know which is picture perfect and includes singing and dancing, and completely turned it on it’s head. So this book is set way way after the original Wizard of Oz, and is about Amy Gumm who also gets sucked into Oz by a tornado from Kansas, way after Dorothy. Dorothy, it turns out, is an evil villain who currently rules Oz, and all of the beloved Oz characters are pretty much evil, and torturing and killing people to tickle their fancy. I love fairy tales, and I love retellings, and this series was pretty good. I felt like it got a bit boring and the plot seemed to lag, but overall it was really good. The companion books were pretty cool because they had the origin stories of all of main characters, which was very cool. I love a good villain backstory. Overall definitely read book one, but go ahead and check out the entire series if you have time.

Breathless Series by Maya Banks

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This erotic trilogy was pretty good.  It is about three friends in New York who are super wealthy because they own a chain of hotels.  They have been best friends for years, and all of them have a BDSM lifestyle in common.  Gabe, Jace, and Ash are very involved in each other’s lives.  Jace and Ash actually share women almost always.  The first book is about Gabe and his relationship with Jace’s little sister, Mia.  I loved this book, so I bought the following two books.  Fever is about Jace and his relationship with Bethany, which puts a wrench in his friendship with Ash because they normally share women, and Jace does not want to share Bethany.  The final book was the worst of the series and it is about Ash and his relationship with Josie.  Each book follows the same basic plot line. The main guy falls for a girl that he should not and it affects his entire life and his friendships with the other two guys.  Overall It was a pretty good series. The first book was the best by far, and if I was ever to re-read any of them, that would be the only one I would read again.

Archie Sheridan & Gretchen Lowell series by Chelsea Cain

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I reviewed Heartsick here.   I loved the first book so much that I bought the rest of the series.  Archie stays obsessed with Gretchen Lowell the serial killer who tortured him, and continues to visit her in prison, under the guise that she is giving him more victim’s bodies, so he has to go. The real reason is obsession. I love how flawed all of the characters are. I have always been intrigued by serial killers, maybe I shouldn’t admit that, but I loved the way the series really got you inside her head. All of the books are brilliant, and have you on the edge of your seat.

Kiddie’s memory

Kiddie was taking a bath and I was in the dark place, and then suddenly I was having a memory of being little, probably 5. I was at my old house where I grew up in Pasadena.  I was sucking on a hard round candy. Possibly a lemonhead, but I’m not sure what it was. My mom left the bathroom. I don’t know why. I don’t remember that part. Normally she sits on the toilet seat while I take my bath, and she wasn’t there. I swallowed the candy accidentally and started choking on it. I couldn’t breathe at all, and I couldn’t call out to yell for Mom to help me.  I thought I was going to die, I started to panic, and I got out of the bath.  I finally swallowed the candy, I think because it finally melted enough to be swallowed. I remember crying and lying on the bathroom floor. I don’t remember anything after that.

I asked my mom if she remembers, but she said she did not remember that. It makes sense, because she wasn’t in there when it happened, and so it was not a significant event for her. Is this the trauma that happened to me that gave me DID? Kiddie hasn’t come back since then. Was that the memory she was holding for me? Or is she hiding? IDK.

Ranger’s Apprentice Series by John Flanagan

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There are 12 books in the series, and there is a spin off series. I read all 12 books.  This series was very good. I believe they are supposed to be middle grade, which makes them super easy to read. Each book is an epic adventure full of villains, danger, and excitement. I enjoyed the entire series. Halt and his apprentice, Will are great characters. I really enjoyed both of them. I like how they start out so different, and as the books progress and Will grows older, you can really see Halt’s influence on him. But you can also see Will’s influence on Halt, which I thought was done very well. The series is great, I think perhaps it went on too long. I did read all of the books one right after the next, but because there were so many I did end up getting a bit bored, and wishing it would be over. I never wanted to stop reading them, they were always good, but I think because I read all 12 at once it got a bit stale. I should have mixed it up and read a couple then a different book, then a couple more. The series was so good I didn’t want to stop reading though. Overall I highly recommend the series, especially for tweens.

End of Year Survey

Every year the blog Perpetual Page Turner hosts an end of year survey full of bookish questions.

Best books of 2017

Note: The survey is for books you read throughout the year, no matter when they were published, and is not limited to just books that came out in 2017!!

 

 

 

Number Of Books You Read: 104
Number of Re-Reads: 1
Genre You Read The Most From: young adult

 

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1. Best Book You Read In 2017?

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2. Book You Were Excited About & Thought You Were Going To Love More But Didn’t?

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 3. Most surprising (in a good way or bad way) book you read?
Wink Poppy Midnight by April Genevieve Tucholke

 4. Book You “Pushed” The Most People To Read (And They Did)?

Gemina by Amie Kaufman

 5. Best series you started in 2017? Best Sequel of 2017? Best Series Ender of 2017?

The Ruins of Gorlan by John Flanagan

Gemina by Amie Kaufman

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 6. Favorite new author you discovered in 2017?

Moïra Fowley-Doyle

7. Best book from a genre you don’t typically read/was out of your comfort zone?

How to Hang a Witch by Adriana Mather historical Fiction

 8. Most action-packed/thrilling/unputdownable book of the year?

The Dead House by Dawn Kurtagich

 9. Book You Read In 2017 That You Are Most Likely To Re-Read Next Year?

Simon vs. the Homo Sapiens Agenda by Becky Albertalli The movie comes out next year

10. Favorite cover of a book you read in 2017?

Suicide Notes from Beautiful Girls by Lynn Weingarten

11. Most memorable character of 2017?

Wink Poppy Midnight by April Genevieve Tucholke Poppy

 12. Most beautifully written book read in 2017?

Spellbook of the Lost and Found by Moïra Fowley-Doyle

13. Most Thought-Provoking/ Life-Changing Book of 2017?

Hearts Are Like Balloons by Candace Robinson

 14. Book you can’t believe you waited UNTIL 2017 to finally read? 

Water for Elephants by Sara Gruen

 15. Favorite Passage/Quote From A Book You Read In 2017?

“Being with you makes me feel like I deserve to be loved. Like I’m less of a monster. Like if you trust me that means I can trust myself.”
Moïra Fowley-Doyle, Spellbook of the Lost and Found

16.Shortest & Longest Book You Read In 2017?

 

Guts by Chuck Palahniuk Shortest

Gemina by Amie Kaufman longest

 

 17. Book That Shocked You The Most

Haunted by Chuck Palahniuk

 

18. OTP OF THE YEAR (you will go down with this ship!)

Quinsey Wolfe's Glass Vault by Candace Robinson Perry and August (I know and I don’t care)

 

19. Favorite Non-Romantic Relationship Of The Year

Dorothy Must Die by Danielle  Paige Amy and Pete

20. Favorite Book You Read in 2017 From An Author You’ve Read Previously

The Field Guide and The Seeing Stone by Holly Black

21. Best Book You Read In 2017 That You Read Based SOLELY On A Recommendation From Somebody Else/Peer Pressure:

Roar by Cora Carmack

22. Newest fictional crush from a book you read in 2017?

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23. Best 2017 debut you read?

Quinsey Wolfe's Glass Vault by Candace Robinson

24. Best Worldbuilding/Most Vivid Setting You Read This Year?

The Ruins of Gorlan by John Flanagan

25. Book That Put A Smile On Your Face/Was The Most FUN To Read?

Water for Elephants by Sara Gruen

26. Book That Made You Cry Or Nearly Cry in 2017?

Water for Elephants by Sara Gruen

27. Hidden Gem Of The Year?

The Language of Thorns by Leigh Bardugo

28. Book That Crushed Your Soul?

Hearts Are Like Balloons by Candace Robinson

29. Most Unique Book You Read In 2017?

Gemina by Amie Kaufman

30. Book That Made You The Most Mad (doesn’t necessarily mean you didn’t like it)?

Wink Poppy Midnight by April Genevieve Tucholke Loved it, but get it together Midnight

 

The Haunting of Sunshine Girl (The Haunting of Sunshine Girl #1) by Paige McKenzie and Alyssa B. Sheinmel

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Goodreads Summary:

Something freaky’s going on with Sunshine’s new house… there’s the chill that wraps itself around her bones, the giggling she can hear in the dead of night, and then the strange shadows that lurk in her photographs. But the more weird stuff that happens, the less her mom believes her. Sunshine’s always had a quirky affiliation with the past, but this time, history is getting much too close for comfort…

If there is something, or someone, haunting her house, what do they want? And what will they do if Sunshine can’t help them?

As things become more frightening and dangerous, and the giggles she hears turn to sobs and screams, Sunshine has no choice but to accept what she is, face the test before her and save her mother from a fate worse than death.

The first in a frighteningly good new series based on the popular YouTube sensation The Haunting of Sunshine Girl Network, created by Paige McKenzie.

My Thoughts:

I loved the cover and the title so I bought the book. I have never seen the Youtube show. Okay so Sunshine is adopted because she was left at the hospital, and her mom was a nurse there. Sunshine develops the ability to interact with ghosts on her 16th birthday. Of course her house is haunted by ghosts. Two ghosts to be exact. One ghost is a little girl who drowned in the bathtub, the other ghost is far more sinister. Sunshine’s mom even becomes possessed by this evil ghost. Sunshine can’t be possessed because she’s special. The story was okay. I wasn’t in love with it, but I didn’t hate it either. It was average for a paranormal horror movie, I could definitely see this playing out on screen, which is probably why it has a huge (apparently according to the book cover) YouTube following. It’s not a great book, but I do love horror, and YA horror seems rare. Overall MEH.

Simon vs. the Homo Sapiens Agenda by Becky Albertalli

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Goodreads Summary:

Sixteen-year-old and not-so-openly gay Simon Spier prefers to save his drama for the school musical. But when an email falls into the wrong hands, his secret is at risk of being thrust into the spotlight. Now Simon is actually being blackmailed: if he doesn’t play wingman for class clown Martin, his sexual identity will become everyone’s business. Worse, the privacy of Blue, the pen name of the boy he’s been emailing, will be compromised.

With some messy dynamics emerging in his once tight-knit group of friends, and his email correspondence with Blue growing more flirtatious every day, Simon’s junior year has suddenly gotten all kinds of complicated. Now, change-averse Simon has to find a way to step out of his comfort zone before he’s pushed out—without alienating his friends, compromising himself, or fumbling a shot at happiness with the most confusing, adorable guy he’s never met.

My Thoughts:

This book was so cute. I loved it. When this book came out I feel like every book blogger I follow was recommending it, and it sounded interesting, but it took me FOREVER to read it. WHY DID I WAIT SO LONG? It was so good. Worth ALL of the hype. Simon is adorable. The romance aspect of the book was so cute. Simon and this online person, Blue, are too much. Blue is someone who goes to Simon’s school, but he doesn’t know who it is. The entire book you are guessing who Blue really is, which is fun. I love reading the emails back and forth, because I am super nosy, and because they were just so stinking cute. Simon has a really great friend group, except for Leah. I think she was a bitch. Overall this was a great coming of age story.

Gemina (The Illuminae Files #2) by Amie Kaufman, Jay Kristoff

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Goodreads Summary:

Moving to a space station at the edge of the galaxy was always going to be the death of Hanna’s social life. Nobody said it might actually get her killed.

The sci-fi saga that began with the breakout bestseller Illuminae continues on board the Jump Station Heimdall, where two new characters will confront the next wave of the BeiTech assault.

Hanna is the station captain’s pampered daughter; Nik the reluctant member of a notorious crime family. But while the pair are struggling with the realities of life aboard the galaxy’s most boring space station, little do they know that Kady Grant and the Hypatia are headed right toward Heimdall, carrying news of the Kerenza invasion.

When an elite BeiTech strike team invades the station, Hanna and Nik are thrown together to defend their home. But alien predators are picking off the station residents one by one, and a malfunction in the station’s wormhole means the space-time continuum might be ripped in two before dinner. Soon Hanna and Nik aren’t just fighting for their own survival; the fate of everyone on the Hypatia—and possibly the known universe—is in their hands.

But relax. They’ve totally got this. They hope.

My Thoughts:

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAS! Illuminae was amazing. This book was also fucking amazing. It was soooooooo good. I knew it was going to be great because Illuminae was just so fucking good! I read it when it came out, but apparently never reviewed it. BUT OMG GET IT BOTH BOOKS THEY ARE AMAZING. My non-reading husband even read and loved both books. AIDAN is back! YAY! AM I NOT MERCIFUL!? You are AIDAN, you absolutely are. AIDAN is the best thing about Illuminae, OBVI my favorite character. ANYWAYS. This book is a great sequel. It has everything you could want in a sequel including new equally great characters, old characters that you already loved, plot twists. stabby deaths. EPIC. New characters Hanna and Nik. Hanna is a secret bad ass, when she seems like a space princess. And Nik. SWOON. I LOVED HIM! Full of snarky comments and jokes. He’s the best. So the characters are all fucking GREAT. What about the plot? Well it is very similar to the first book in that you have two teens that you are rooting for who are trying to save everyone they can, but mostly each other. Murders and more murders, and then oh yah, murders. YAAAAAAAAAAS. I can’t wait for book 3!!!!!!!!!!!

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Hey guys You might know that I am the alter of the blogger for http://www.vivacioushobo.com Or that I am the origin and she was an alter. Or whatever. Either way, Sadness (Kaitlin Michelle) and I have integrated, and I think that is probably, maybe, a permanent thing.  I have all of her memories and some of her feelings and stuff. So I have this blog for me, but she had a blog. And I didn’t want to blog on her blog because it was hers and I wanted my own space, but now I think it is okay, because now we are one, and so anyways, all of my personal posts will be here.  All of my bookish/movie/nerd type posts will be over there. I reserve the right to change my mind.

Violet Grenade by Victoria Scott

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This book is about a girl named Domino who lives on the street who has DID. She has an alter named Wilson, who is a much darker personality than Domino. She gets picked up (not kidnapped or anything) by this woman named Madam Karina who runs a girl’s entertainment place in West Texas. Domino chooses to go with her, and then since Madam Karina seems nice to her, she decides she needs to perform better and better, so that she can move up through the levels of the house, and get in better favor with Madam Karina. Also at the house, along with a bunch of bitches, who all have their own reasons for being at the house, is Cain. Domino decides to leave the house, but discovers that leaving isn’t really an option, and has to figure out how to escape. I really liked this book.  This is the first book I have read about DID and even though it is fiction it was very interesting to read about.  The room inside of Domino’s head where she talks to Wilson, is very real to me, I have a room in my head that Sadness sleeps in, so that was pretty realistic.

The Dead House by Dawn Kurtagich Review

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Goodreads Summary:

Part-psychological thriller, part-urban legend, this is an unsettling narrative made up of diary entries, interview transcripts, film footage transcripts and medical notes. Twenty-five years ago, Elmbridge High burned down. Three people were killed and one pupil, Carly Johnson, disappeared. Now a diary has been found in the ruins of the school. The diary belongs to Kaitlyn Johnson, Carly’s identical twin sister. But Carly didn’t have a twin . . .

Re-opened police records, psychiatric reports, transcripts of video footage and fragments of diary reveal a web of deceit and intrigue, violence and murder, raising a whole lot more questions than it answers.

Who was Kaitlyn and why did she only appear at night? Did she really exist or was she a figment of a disturbed mind? What were the illicit rituals taking place at the school? And just what did happen at Elmbridge in the events leading up to ‘the Johnson Incident’?

Chilling, creepy and utterly compelling, THE DEAD HOUSE is one of those very special books that finds all the dark places in your imagination, and haunts you long after you’ve finished reading.

My Thoughts:

I loved this book. The formatting is really interesting. It is written in diaries, interviews, and film transcripts. I’ve been reading a lot of books about dissociative identity disorder. Some good some bad, most seem to be some sort of thriller or horror style. This is no exception. As someone who has DID I found this book very interesting and haunting. This book is about Kaitlyn and Carly Johnson. Two alters of the same person. Carly is stuck in the day, while Kaitlyn rules the night. I connected with Kaitlyn a lot. I couldn’t stop reading it. It was thrilling and a page turner. This book absolutely had me freaked out, which surprised me, but I think I was so connected to the characters that I was just entranced with the story. Loved it!

Vanishing Girls by Lauren Oliver Review

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Goodreads Summary:

New York Times bestselling author Lauren Oliver delivers a gripping story about two sisters inexorably altered by a terrible accident.

Dara and Nick used to be inseparable, but that was before the accident that left Dara’s beautiful face scarred and the two sisters totally estranged. When Dara vanishes on her birthday, Nick thinks Dara is just playing around. But another girl, nine-year-old Madeline Snow, has vanished, too, and Nick becomes increasingly convinced that the two disappearances are linked. Now Nick has to find her sister, before it’s too late.

In this edgy and compelling novel, Lauren Oliver creates a world of intrigue, loss, and suspicion as two sisters search to find themselves, and each other.

My Thoughts:

Funny use of the word altered in the summary.  I am going to ruin this book with spoilers so don’t read this if you don’t like spoilers. This book was great. The writing is impeccable. This is another haunting story about DID. This is a book I couldn’t stop reading. The book is told in the point of view of each sister. Nick is the older sister who is the perfect sister. Bookwormish and over achieving. Dara, the youngest is the party girl. Of course there is a love triangle with each girl falling in love with the same boy and it ruins their sister-ship, and everyone’s friendship with the guy. Of course. Then there is a car accident that changes everything. Each sister has the same view of the other one, they both think the other is more loved, more perfect, and better than themselves. I did think the beginning of the book was a bit slow, and the plot twist was expected for me *spoiler coming up*
because I knew that one of the sisters had DID, but I just didn’t understand how that was possible because the book didn’t seem to discuss it. BUT DARA FUCKING DIED IN THE CAR CRASH! and so that means Nick has been living as both sisters after the crash, because she develops DID. WHAT THE FUCK. That was out of left field. Love the way it was laid out. Plus there is a whole side plot of a missing 9 year old girl, and an underage porn site that has something to do with Dara and a club.

review Heartsick (Archie Sheridan & Gretchen Lowell #1) by Chelsea Cain

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Goodreads Summary:

Damaged Portland detective Archie Sheridan spent ten years tracking Gretchen Lowell, a beautiful serial killer, but in the end she was the one who caught him. Two years ago, Gretchen kidnapped Archie and tortured him for ten days, but instead of killing him, she mysteriously decided to let him go. She turned herself in, and now Gretchen has been locked away for the rest of her life, while Archie is in a prison of another kind–addicted to pain pills, unable to return to his old life, powerless to get those ten horrific days off his mind. Archie’s a different person, his estranged wife says, and he knows she’s right. He continues to visit Gretchen in prison once a week, saying that only he can get her to confess as to the whereabouts of more of her victims, but even he knows the truth–he can’t stay away.

When another killer begins snatching teenage girls off the streets of Portland, Archie has to pull himself together enough to lead the new task force investigating the murders. A hungry young newspaper reporter, Susan Ward, begins profiling Archie and the investigation, which sparks a deadly game between Archie, Susan, the new killer, and even Gretchen. They need to catch a killer, and maybe somehow then Archie can free himself from Gretchen, once and for all. Either way, Heartsick makes for one of the most extraordinary suspense debuts in recent memory.

My Thoughts:

My friend let me borrow this book. This book is so well written. I have a new-found love for mysteries and thrillers. The characters are very realistic and well-developed. This book is about Archie Sheridan who was a cop hunting serial killer Gretchen Lowell. He becomes on of her victims and she tortures him for 10 days. She ends up killing him, bringing him back to life, calling 911 to get him help, and turn herself in. Now he is addicted to pills to cope with the torture he went through. There is a new serial killer in his town, and he is asked to come back and head up the new task force. He agrees. So many plot twists will have you on the edge of your seat and unable to put this book down.

Pretty Girl-13 by Liz Coley

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Goodreads Summary:

Pretty Girl-13 is a disturbing and powerful psychological thriller about a girl who must piece together the story of her kidnapping and captivity and then piece together her own identity.

When thirteen-year-old Angela Gracie Chapman looks in the mirror, someone else looks back–a thin, pale stranger, a sixteen-year-old with haunted eyes. Angie has no memory of the past three years, years in which she was lost to the authorities, lost to her family and friends, lost even to herself. Where has she been, who has been living her life, and what is hiding behind the terrible blankness? There are secrets you can’t even tell yourself.

With a tremendous amount of courage and support from unexpected friends, Angie embarks on a journey into the darkest corners of her mind. As she unearths more and more about her past, she discovers a terrifying secret and must decide: when you remember things you wish you could forget, do you destroy the people responsible, or is there another way to feel whole again?

Liz Coley’s alarming and fascinating psychological mystery is a disturbing—and ultimately empowering—page turner about accepting our whole selves, and the healing power of courage, hope, and love.

My Thoughts:

This book is about Angie who is kidnapped when she is 13 years old. 3 years later she shows up at her house, mysteriously returned with no memory of the past three years. As it turns out Angie gets dissociative identity disorder to help cope with being kidnapped. Angie doesn’t experience any of the cruelties that happened to her, because her alters took care of her. The story was very good. This book deals with a lot of tough issues including mental illness and rape. Not only the rape she experiences while being kidnapped. There is childhood trauma from prior to the kidnapping. I love how the book has the cabin that the alters and talk to each other at because this resonates with me. I don’t have a cabin in my head, but there is a hallway and at least one room. I also liked how she knew there were some alters but didn’t know about all of them, because that is realistic for me.Very good book.

Roar (Stormheart #1) by Cora Carmack

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Goodreads:

In a land ruled and shaped by violent magical storms, power lies with those who control them.

Aurora Pavan comes from one of the oldest Stormling families in existence. Long ago, the ungifted pledged fealty and service to her family in exchange for safe haven, and a kingdom was carved out from the wildlands and sustained by magic capable of repelling the world’s deadliest foes. As the sole heir of Pavan, Aurora’s been groomed to be the perfect queen. She’s intelligent and brave and honorable. But she’s yet to show any trace of the magic she’ll need to protect her people.

To keep her secret and save her crown, Aurora’s mother arranges for her to marry a dark and brooding Stormling prince from another kingdom. At first, the prince seems like the perfect solution to all her problems. He’ll guarantee her spot as the next queen and be the champion her people need to remain safe. But the more secrets Aurora uncovers about him, the more a future with him frightens her. When she dons a disguise and sneaks out of the palace one night to spy on him, she stumbles upon a black market dealing in the very thing she lacks—storm magic. And the people selling it? They’re not Stormlings. They’re storm hunters.

Legend says that her ancestors first gained their magic by facing a storm and stealing part of its essence. And when a handsome young storm hunter reveals he was born without magic, but possesses it now, Aurora realizes there’s a third option for her future besides ruin or marriage.

She might not have magic now, but she can steal it if she’s brave enough.

Challenge a tempest. Survive it. And you become its master.

My Thoughts:

I only read this book because my friend wanted to buddy-read it.  I wasn’t really interested in reading it, but fuck was I wrong! This book was SOOOOOO good! The author is also really nice. I have messaged her a few times about Roar on Twitter, and she has always responded! ❤ It’s ironic really, because the friend that wanted to read it, didn’t end up liking it.  I was totally obsessed with Cassius and then Roar runs away, and we don’t get much of him anymore. My main issue with the book is the huge cliffhanger and the end, and no release date for book 2. The storm magic was really cool. In real life, I am obsessed with the sky and with storms and I wasn’t sure how the storm magic was going to work, but I thought it was soooooo cool! I thought the book was going to be cliché where Roar doesn’t have storm magic even though she was born into, and so she runs away, and then of course she DOES have storm magic and surprise saves the kingdom, and her mom is finally proud of her. BUT THAT IS NOT WHAT HAPPENS! And I was so glad for that. I was in love with Locke, because swoon, and how can you not be?!?! I CANNOT WAIT FOR THE SEQUEL!

Good as Gone by Amy Gentry

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Goodreads Summary:

Thirteen-year-old Julie Whitaker was kidnapped from her bedroom in the middle of the night, witnessed only by her younger sister. Her family was shattered, but managed to stick together, hoping against hope that Julie is still alive. And then one night: the doorbell rings. A young woman who appears to be Julie is finally, miraculously, home safe. The family is ecstatic—but Anna, Julie’s mother, has whispers of doubts.  She hates to face them. She cannot avoid them. When she is contacted by a former detective turned private eye, she begins a torturous search for the truth about the woman she desperately hopes is her daughter.

My Thoughts:

Okay this book is very good. I am being converted to suspense and thrillers as my new favorite genre. This is about Julie a 13-year-old who was kidnapped from her house at knife point. The only witness is her 10-year-old sister. 8 years later Julie returns. Or does she? Is it Julie or is it someone pretending to be Julie? This is a fast paced novel that I finished reading in one day. I was surprised by the outcome of who Julie really turns out to be. I live in Houston and was excited to recognize a lot of the places that were described in the book. I am also excited that the Joel Osteen character turned out to be crazy and evil. I laughed so hard about that. Loved this book.

Invisibility by Andrea Cremer and David Levithan

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Goodreads Summary:

Stephen has been invisible for practically his whole life — because of a curse his grandfather, a powerful cursecaster, bestowed on Stephen’s mother before Stephen was born. So when Elizabeth moves to Stephen’s NYC apartment building from Minnesota, no one is more surprised than he is that she can see him. A budding romance ensues, and when Stephen confides in Elizabeth about his predicament, the two of them decide to dive headfirst into the secret world of cursecasters and spellseekers to figure out a way to break the curse. But things don’t go as planned, especially when Stephen’s grandfather arrives in town, taking his anger out on everyone he sees. In the end, Elizabeth and Stephen must decide how big of a sacrifice they’re willing to make for Stephen to become visible — because the answer could mean the difference between life and death. At least for Elizabeth.

My Thoughts:

I have a couple of David Levithan books, but I haven’t read any of them until this one. I have over 1500 books because Sadness is a hoarder. Anyway, I decided to read this one, and I liked it a lot. Stephen is invisible and has been his entire life, due to a curse placed on his mother. Not even his mom ever got to see him. His dad left, but still funds his son, after his mom died a couple of years ago. Stephen lives in an apartment building in New York, and when a new neighbor moves in, he is shocked to find out she can see him. At first he thinks the curse is broken, perhaps he aged out or something, but it turns out that no, only she can see him. I loved Elizabeth and her brother. Laurie, her brother, was probably my favorite character in fact. Of course the only girl who can see the invisible boy has a relationship with him. He would obviously love her, but she loves him too. I loved the curse aspect, especially the bit about Elizabeth’s graphic novels. I liked the story.

Deadman’s Tome Final Contact

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Deadman’s Tome presents First Contact. This volume of galactic terror features stories that warn of the consequences of bold space exploration, exploitative mining, venturing too far, and contact with foreign entities. You see, dear reader, we are not alone, and our first contact might just be our last!

My thoughts:

I got this book for free in exchange for a review.  I loved this little collection of short stories. My favorites were A Layer Hidden by Candace Robinson, which had a great creepy twist, and A Slow Death by James ‘Grim’ Desborough, which was haunting. All together it was a very good collection of sci fi horror stories. It’s quick and all of the stories were easy to read. They all flow together nicely.

Touching Snow by M. Sindy Felin

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Goodreads Summary:

“The best way to avoid being picked on by high school bullies is to kill someone.”

Karina has plenty to worry about on the last day of seventh grade: finding three Ds and a C on her report card again, getting laughed at by everyone again, being sent to the principal — again. She’d like this to change, but with her and her sisters dodging their stepfather’s fists every day after school, she doesn’t have time to do much self-reflecting. Finally her stepfather is taken away on child abuse charges, and Karina thinks things might turn into something resembling normal. The problem is, he’s not gone for good. And as Karina becomes closer with a girl at the community center where her stepfather is not showing up for his parenting classes, she starts to realize a couple things. First, for all the problems her family had tried to escape by immigrating from Haiti, they brought most of them along to upstate New York. And second, if anything is going to change for this family, it is going to be up to Karina and her sisters to make it happen.

M. Sindy Felin’s debut novel is the story of a young girl’s coming-of-age amid the violent waters that run just beneath the surface of suburbia — a story that has the courage to ask: How far will you go to protect the ones you love?

My Thoughts:

At first I didn’t like the voice of the main character, and I considered not reading it. I was intrigued by the story though, and I am glad I finished it. This book deals with a lot, abuse, cultural issues with people who moved to America, a neglectful mother. Karina suffers from blackouts most likely as a result of trauma at home. The Daddy beats her and her siblings. When her older sister almost dies, Karina has to figure out what to tell the police that show up, and whether she should tell the truth to the judge.I found the book to be very interesting.

Haunted by Chuck Palahniuk

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Goodreads:

Haunted is a novel made up of stories: twenty-three of the most horrifying, hilarious, mind-blowing, stomach-churning tales you’ll ever encounter.

The stories are told by people who have all answered an ad headlined ‘Artists Retreat: Abandon your life for three months‘. They are led to believe that here they will leave behind all the distractions of ‘real life’ that are keeping them from creating the masterpiece that is in them.

But ‘here’ turns out to be a cavernous and ornate old theater where they are utterly isolated from the outside world – and where heat and power and, most importantly, food are in increasingly short supply. And the more desperate the circumstances become, the more desperate the stories they tell – and the more devious their machinations to make themselves the hero of the inevitable play/movie/non-fiction blockbuster that will certainly be made from their plight.

My Thoughts:

So Chuck Palahniuk is my favorite author.  I loved the movie Fight Club, but I haven’t actually read that book yet.  I have read many of his other books and short stories though.Although this is a kind-of collection of short stories, it is actually a novel that the short stories make up. The characters in the book all have to tell their story, because they are locked together in an abandoned theater. This book is disturbing and fucked up like all the other Chuck Palahniuk books. There are a lot of blood and guts in this book, like many of his other novels. I love how each characters story has nothing to do with each other, but they are all connected through human depravity. I’ve heard that the author reading Guts aloud has made many people pass out. I don’t get that. I guess I am pretty messed up too, cause I don’t think that story was that fucked. I mean yes it was fucked up and gruesome, but not enough to make someone pass out. I don’t think. Oh and the cover glows in the dark, which was a bit of a shock to see a scary face glowing in the dark. Surprise.

Tokoyo Street Style, a coloring book. Review

This book is so cute!!! I got it free in exchange for an honest review from blogging for books. I can not wait to start coloring it! I love the diversity of the pages. Some are whole pages of prints and some are simple designs. The selfie girls are too cute!

New York Street Style: A Coloring Book by Zoé de Las Cases

 

This coloring book by Zoé de Las Cases is super cute. I love it as much as the Tokyo Street Style one I have. I like that it comes with an elastic to keep the book closed and a ribbon to mark your place. This one has a lot of great pages to color. Just like in Tokyo Street Style it has pages with full patterned images and some that aren’t full page. I love that it really gives a New York feel, and it isn’t just generic.

The Comic Book Story of Video Games: The Incredible History of the Electronic Gaming Revolution

The Comic Book Story of Video Games: The Incredible History of the Electronic Gaming Revolutionby  Jonathan Hennessey and Jack McGowan

This is a graphic novel that tells the history of video games. I think this is a really cool book for a gamer. I’m giving it to my brother. The artwork is rendered very nicely.  While this book isn’t great for me, the history of video games is a bit boring for me, I think if you were super into games you would find it very interesting!

Of nightmares and dilerium

So last night I woke up panicked from my nightmare at 2:17am.  I had to check my husband was really him, and then asked him to hold me, while I sang the Winnie the Pooh theme song to my self (nightmare cure, obviously)

I was at my house with Ashley, but we were planning on moving. There are some shitty apartments near our house, walking distance, but it looked like there might be cute townhouses behind them. We decided to walk over.  The shitty apartments were as expected, but right behind those were some really cute townhouses! There was a really nice garden, and Ashley and I were talking about seeing if any were available and walking through the garden, when an alarm started going off. A recording said “no trespassing, dogs are being released, trespassers will be shot” Ashley and I looked at each other, horrified.  We start back towards my house and an angry black and white border collie rounds the corner in front of us barking.  Then an older man (50s) came around the corner aiming either a shotgun or a crossbow at us. Seems like I would know which one but I feel like Everytime I looked it was different.  I told Ashley to raise her hands and I put my hands In the air. I told him why we were there, just looking to see about moving. He let us go.  When we got back to my house I realized I had dropped my book and had to go back. Ashley went home and I went back. I grabbed my book, and was walking back across a field and I saw that same guy getting into his car in the parking lot. I decided to walk away from that area and he pulled out and parked next to me. He told me to get in but I said no and ran home. 

When I got home he pulled into the driveway and forced his way inside. He sat in my recliner and I grabbed a knife. I yelled at him to get the fuck out. He asked why I was acting this way. He said he was my husband. I said no I’m married to W. He said I am W. I argued and said no you aren’t he is at work. I called my husband but he didn’t answer. He said I can’t answer I’m right here and I forgot my phone at work. I said no you aren’t him. You’re lying. I grabbed a second knife. I called my mom and told her to come over and bring dad and bring a gun. The man said I was having a psychotic break. I couldn’t recognize him, but he is my husband. I told Mom to knock on the door when she got there with Dad ready to shoot. I said if W doesn’t open the door then shoot whoever he is cause he forced his way in here. When they got there my dad shot him and his head exploded all over the hallway. I was screaming because I really didn’t know if that was W or not until I could talk to him for myself. 

Then I woke up.

And I had to make sure my husband was who I thought he was. And I panicked because what if that happens to me. What if my brain makes me not recognize my family, permanently. I am very afraid of this.

Me, Myself, and I

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So I haven’t been posting much lately.  There are several reasons for this.  I integrated (we think) with Sadness.  This gave me all of her memories and stuff, but it also gave me a part of her. It is like we merged together or something, so now I have more of her personality.  Unless, I did not integrate, and she is trying to come out. Because I have felt depressed and have gotten anxiety, and just all around blah and lazy. Melancholy.  Kiddie has run around most evenings.  I bought her some toys and picture books. Seems weird to buy stuff like that when you don’t have kids, but in a way we kind of do.  Not me really, but my husband. I mean he is the one that has to deal with Kiddie when she is here running a muck.

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And I got a job.  It is only part-time, 3 days a week. But I haven’t done anything in such a long time it will be nice to get out of the house. I am actually really excited about it.  My best friend works there, so I think it will be great.  Yesterday was my first day, and everyone there seems really nice.

Anyways that is what has gone on with me lately. I am going to try to keep a better schedule, both with the blog and household chores (which I have also been neglecting.)

We shall see.

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